TGIF

Last week through me a bit of a curve as far as pain goes.  By weeks end, it was to the point that Dr. Paloyan ordered some blood work, hooked me up to some nutrients via IV... and when was all said and done, ordered a new set of MRI's.  Due to the fact that my legs where quite weak, it was thought to be best to do the MRI's as inpatient, therefore I was admitted to the hospital friday afternoon, overnight until saturday afternoon.The MRI's were ordered to rule out any spinal cord compression, causing the recent pain and leg issues.  Good news, was that there is no issues with the spinal cord.  They have boiled the weakness and pain down once again to medications and their side effects.  We are working on that as well.  There is sooo much going on, between the medications and treatments its hard telling what causes what.  I could bore you with the details but I wont.  We have also started physical therapy at home, and will start an out patient therapy program as well.

Mean while.... this past week Grandpa Bill was in a battle of his own.  Same time I was dealing with my issues, he was battling an infection, the same one he was a few weeks back.  It flared up again and landed him back in the hospital.  Also just so happened friday was his birthday as well, an I wouldnt miss that party for anything!  We had rooms right next to each other, although, visiting was not much of an option with our conditions.   Even more ironic, is the procedure he had to have was on the other end of the hospital, main floor, right next to where I had mine, at the same time.  Its just unfortunate tha tthe circumstances with the infection and such, prohibited much contact between all of us.  He was in "isolation"... which we had to honor in hopes of getting him better and preventing my from getting ill.  We snuck this pic at the end of our stay.

Its been a bit of a mental struggle as of lately, keeping up and up.  It really is no different today than it was fighting this 2 weeks ago.  Everyday offers a different challenge than the day before, bit its nothing that cant be over came.  Its simply something that I just need to find a balance of and take it on.  Its hard not being able to do the simple things in life.  I guess its just one of those things where I need to swallow my pride and get admit that I may need help, or assistance, as humbling as that may be.    Keeping focused on things has been the biggest challange as of lately, and my Aunt Ann could relate, saying the same thing.  Simply reading magazines or writing these blogs take alot of focus that I just dont seem to have some times.  BARE WITH ME.  They call it "Chemo- Brain"....  My Aunt Ann, having been through this before, lent me words of advice saying chemo is not going kill me, and it wont.  I just need to accept that for the next few weeks, months, I wont be able to do the things I want to, or always have with out help, and thats ok.  Fortunatly, I have people there that are willing to help.  Its hard for me to take a step back, and let others do thing especially with weather the way it is right now.  Its gorgeous out, but we will get through this.  There is no other option.

Keep the positives coming...I love and appreciate the support.  It helps more than I can express.

Time for me to do the exercises... post away, and I will try to keep up to date.